I said goodbye to you today.
We had a good day, you came over and we walked to a park and just cuddled and talked and it was as good as any last day with someone you love can be. I cried. A lot. But I guess I just have to keep reminding myself that we didn’t break up. We just won’t see each other for three and a half months. My biggest fear, is that you’ll be in town in December, and you won’t be my significant other anymore. That we’ll have grown into two very different people and we’ll realize that we’re not right for each other anymore, and I’ll look back and wish I’d spent one more day, one more hour with this guy I was in love with because he gave me one of the best years of my life.
However, I realize that you’re the one who was really into us staying together, that you brought it up first. Which leaves me to believe that you love me, too.
And I never give up on something I love. I always want love to prevail and I believe that things happen for a reason. So, if we don’t end up together, it wasn’t meant to be.
I do believe it was meant to be though.
I’m not entirely sure I believe in the concept of soul mates, but I could easily see you being mine, I love you.
We’ll be together again.
I’m terrible with goodbyes.
You’re so beautiful, I just want to lay in bed with you forever.
These kinds of days are days when it hits me like crazy. Like I fell one hundred feet on the ground and all the air in my lungs get knocked out of me.
I miss you…
I miss being close to you, close enough to hear you breathe, close enough to feel your warmth and close enough to touch you.
I miss the way you run your hands through my hair, the way your fingers intertwine with mine, and simply the way you look at me.
I’m crying right now. I love you. I miss you. I want you here. I want to touch you.
I want to drown in the green of your eyes, suffocate in the tightness of your embrace, be speechless by the mere feel of you.
I miss you. I miss you every second of my conscious mind.
Long distance relationships are really hard, point blank. Every night you fall asleep alone, your main communication is over the net, maybe you get to see their face over skype but there is no physical touching involved. You can’t kiss, hug, tickle, tease, or brush pass them as you walk. You…
I love you. And everything will be alright. I love you.